It's been so long

There goes. It has been more than a year a go since my last post. Blogging is something that I don't think will last long for me. I don't know how. I till I will blog more now often then before because I can do it on my Sexy Droids. Wheee.. Tashkani there is apps for blogger and that's awesome.

Last year was kinda tough somehow. Everything seems to be in place but I was then to find out later that all falls apart each time when it started to grow. If life is like how I wanted it to be, then I will be long gone before time as the force of destructive nature is so strong. Well I survived another year with more awesome one to come this year.

Had dinner with my family on th 14th which was my birthday. Enjoy the dinner a lot as the food at Pangkor Village was awesome. That day itself was awesome and still are now. I hope that the awesome aura will stay for a very long time. Everything goes along the way where it is meant to be. And the best part of it, I can see it coming right before it happens. (I have six sense. WTF!) Had a dream that nite. It was my daddy. I cried in my dreams and woke up to realize that I really cried for real. I miss him so much and time can never heal the scars or take away my memory. Nothing to describe nor replace how much I miss you daddy. If only I can see you one more time, I will be the happiest person to ever live. I think everyone has forgotten about you and moved on with their life. On the bright side everyone is happy. Mom's is doing great and got promoted to high level position is less than a year. She's doing well and happy now. Your son me is also awesome like that followed by Leon. There are so many things I want to tell you and wish you can hear me. Life was never the same since the day you left me.

Been really with work lately. Don't have much time for myself. Especially when I need to cope up with work and other schedule. I'm still trying to maintain balance in every aspect possible. Learn tonnes of new things. I always believe in myself and I always think I can conquer the world just like that. I don't think that is possible now and I am not saying I'm incapable or confidence to do that. Just to realize that my knowledge and so many other factors to consider. Will strive for the best possible achievement before I turn 25 next year.

Next achievement for 2012.
1. Close a deal with major corporation with estimated contract sum over 6million.
2. Focused on major aspect to become the next generation successor
3. Get my new VW GTI
4. The rest is history.

I don't and I wont want to think of any other stuff besides the above. This is not the life that I want. I told myself that sometime ago. I know I have the ability to achieve what I want in life. Anything that is bad for me I will turn my back and leave. If it is good for me, I will treasure it. If it has potential, I will chase after it. If it messes with me, I will turn my back with no regrets. What is your greatest fear? To live with somethings from the past that I wish to take the right turn rather than the left turn.

One Fine Day

1st post on the 6th of January 2010. Tashkani, on the 1st of January 2010 is not really a good day for me. Everything is getting better I hope. Everything I do seems to be a mess. Tried very hard to support my family in every single way, yet is never enough.



I always wonder, how hard is it to keep this whole family standing? In the end it's not as simple as I think it would turn out to be. There is a saying that 1 man can change the world or makes a different. The fact is the other way round. 1 man can't change anything. It takes more than a thousand to move a mountain. At least this is what I believe. Even Achilles die someday. I can never stay here forever to hold and patch everything up. Grow up! Please use your almighty brain to think for once. You won't stay forever young. Stop being so FUCKING CHILDISH!



The rest of the day is great. Someone message me this morning and asked me to buy her black oil. I hang for a moment in my life. Black oil? WTH is black oil. It's a direct translation of "Hak Yau". It's engine oil instead of black oil. This is how Malaysian speak. Welcome to Malaysia.

.ONE love.

Okay.. It's late on a Saturday night. Sleepy, tired and high(absolute cranberry vodka mixed with Ribena covered in air tight Sigg container) sip by sip.. Can you sip your life away?? I used to always asked myself back then, why do people love to blog? What do they blog about? Well it may seems like an addiction or just for fun still God knows why. Why do people love to drink(you know what I mean when it's not H2O)? I just don't know why nor understand. Have you ever wonder why? I'm sure all of us did. Well, can you live for a moment in your life without music?? I can't. I need music. At least once a day. I'm dead serious. Even a track will make me happy enough. Well there is alot of random thoughts running in my mind tashikani is not really random but people always asked me to save money for your future bla bla bla(I never disagree)... Let me ask you this, no money is a torture. When you have 10bucks still it's money. When you make six figure also money.. How much is enought? Man-kind always have GREED! (Born and blend together) But when you start to save money for future, have you ever wonder when will be your future? Assume you are at the age of 20years old and 10 years down the road you are 30 and 20 years down the road you are 50 and you died at the age of 50.5 years old. So, when is you future??
YOU WON'T LIVE A LIFE MORE THAN THE AGE OF 80years old. Don't be stupid.
This is so RANDOM! I miss my dad so much. T.T
It's been almost two years now. Who knows what we have been thru. It's a tough time when things like this hit us. Expected, but not really prepared for it (like you know you are so gonna hit that Jackpot but you are not prepared for it and when you win A Billion dollar and you fucking go crazy). It's so hard. If only he can hear us or hear me now. Unconditional love and bond between two person. It won't be as easy as formatting a Hard Drive(HDD). If only it works that way, all of our life will be much much much perfect. As for all of you out there please treasure people around you when they are still here. When THE DAY comes there shall be no regrets no matter a thousand gallon of tear drops won't be able to buy anything back.