Friday, May 27, 2011

Wants, needs, must have, or any other words similar

Have you ever have the feelings of having something or someone so badly?
So bad till you can't sleep at nite? Day or nite, it goes round and round and round in your mind?
When it's actually so near, yet still so far out of reach.

I don't know who to talk to anymore. I don't fell like talking to anyone at all. It feel's good to write it out loud. I think God is angry at me. I feel.

What I desire could it also be what my heart desire. I don't know. I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY.
What I used to enjoy doing, it's totally the opposite now. A year ago I am myself, but now I dont even know who am I. It's still too far away from "MID-LIFE CRYSIS". I had anger management issue but I think I'm doing great so far. But sometimes I really need to let it go. But I can never find the perfect output or even a proper output to all of this.

What could you possibly desire when you already have everything? Going crazy over something that will never happen the way it supposed to be. Gosh.. What else can I say?
I rest my case.