Thursday, April 30, 2015

Is him who lead us, is us who make the difference!

It's just yet another thin line between right and wrong. Appreciate all the up's and down in life, as of for me is to get closer to those that is true to me. Live life is a must, but living life in the way of Jehovah is a necessity. Every step and every moment is He who gave it to us. As written in the bible, "Jesus said to him: “I am the way+ and the truth+ and the life.+ No one comes to the Father except through me.+ 7 If you men had known me, you would have known my Father also; from this moment on you know him and have seen him.”+ John Chapter 14:6 & 7 As Jehovah God blessed my every step. My achievement is nothing if it's not from Jehovah himself. My ego-ness and ignorance is what I am ashamed of but my humbleness had changed the course of my path. Forgive me as I have sinned, and give me the courage to fight my fear and avoid evildoers, so I could provide for my family as they have provided me. Give the strength to not be intoxicated by an social drugs, as I have sinned one again. Give the the strength and courage to start a life with presence of Jehovah and the perseverance. Help those who are in need and let the revenge and hatred be dealt with. My life is so wonderful and I am doing all I can do keep that. One day we could still sit down looking at those days and memories we have created. Smiling and laughing while our grandson and granddaughter lit our every smile. Never regret anything since the day that we met. It's not easy to find someone that can cope up in things we do. Never the less, it was a million times more difficult to share your side of the story without being judge.Praying hard that you would be a part of my life till the day we both expired. =) #TWC #LEONDG #RAJ #GARY

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Saw this when I was cleaning up my old hard drive where I thought it was dead. 19th March 2012, 10:18pm, Singapore. Dear Diary, Finished watching superman returns from year (2010) I guess. Right now at this moment, I am listening to love songs and it feels so good. Called my STBW girlfriend 3 times in a row. She never pick up. Just right after I send her a message, she texted me and I am writing here now and ignored her call. Moments later she called. Guess what, I continue wrighting and did not pick up her call. I really wonder what is she doing at that moment. All this while when I did not answear her call, all sorts of bad thoughts starting to creeps into her mind, so I felt the same things right here right now. After reading her messages I decided to call her back. "i WAS CHARGING MY PHONE, didn't notice the phone was ringging". sORRY TO SAY THIS, I STILL DONT TRUST WOMEN ALL THE WAY. Is she really in her grandma's house? Really? Who cares? Maybe I was raised not to trust no women, no matter how much I Love her or how deep I have fallen into the bunny hole. It's not so mcuh of putting up with the scores between each other. If she can feels that way, why can't I feel the same? I felt that every person on earth has someone they can really talked to and shares every tiny little deatails in their life. No? Why? So who will that person be? A stranger or probably someone so much closer to them that you know or never eventhought of, cause it is a secret between them and they are just a friend infront of you? I really do not know this. No matter how much I love her, I still thinks that she is not entirely honest with it. I am also trying my best to shares every tiny details with her, yet it is hard. Just don't want to be judged by someone I love so much and creates the boundaries of fear when we are entirely from a seperate universe. Why universe? World is so much smaller compared to a galaxy, because of the gap of such a vast difference a galaxy describe it all. Top of the world means nothing no more, as I am standing on my own feet to keep up with the galaxy. Moon and stars is no longer what I promised to deliver from the bootom of my heart, it is the galaxy and beyond infinity will display my affection. I promised her once, shiny armor I shall be as long as I live to protect her. Also like a bullet that penetrates thru all Godly armor to destroy all her nightmares away. Right up to this point, I am invulnerable as I am the master of all weapon, an and invicible barrier of love that we have build over the years. The only weakness is her love to me, cause she will forever be my kryptonite to destroy me. If this day were to come, it will be a total eclipse that will shalter the light to destroy me from within, powerful enought that the Sun could not save me. ................ end

Thursday, March 26, 2015


I wish you were here with me Baby girl. You'll always be my Baby girl. Perhaps till the day I had my own daughter. XD

Saturday, March 14, 2015


Wishing you would shine brighter than a star that I used to called mine.
I'm happy for you are happy, I'm sad for the pain I caused and those scars I can't remove.
It's been awhile since we knew each other. Remember me, remember us for as long as we live.
Si go our favourite song, My Heart and Armageddon. Truly happy for your happiness. Wish I had a moment to stop and say goodbye thou it's still is my saddest word to ever say it out. <3


Friday, March 6, 2015

It wasn't easy.

It wasn't easy and never will but it's pure and true.
Forgive me for what I have done and treasure those sweet memories we had.
Remember me, remember us and all those we used to have for as long as you live.

I never really understand stand why you left nor why you are sad, all I know there's so much more about me that you don't know. Love creates fear that somehow you'll lose them for the fact is love should be without hesitation and fear.


Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Perhaps this is the best

You have my blessing. You deserve someone better. May Jehovah God bless upon your every step and happiness.
Thank you for your unconditional love, sweet memories and being a part of life.

It's my action to caused a good women like you to walk out of my life. Thank you for your unconditional love.
I will always love you.